Fiery Passion

When we met, it was when
The world was red and gold,
When Nature flourished the last time-
Her grand finale, her final goodbye,
Before the winter crept in
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Our Childhood was just you and me and the blue, blue sky,
Golden leaves and Halloweens,
Schoolgirl crushes, and broken hearts.
And our birthdays, both shared in Autumn
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As we walked and the trees rained
Leaves of amber and crimson.
I noticed: your paleness and pain.
The worry, the anxiety, the concern
Washed over like tides of the sea.
Questions were asked, and the Answers came.
Should I have really asked?
Because not knowing would be better, if it meant that you weren't slipping away from me.
You were my Autumn, who wilted with each kiss of Frost
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They were the days of hope;
People cried, but never me-
How could I, when I was your protector, your anchor, and the brave one,
And, Your Best Friend?
But when I told you that one day, everything would be fine again,
My words rang empty, as empty and bare as the tree branches now.
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Then the day came, the inevitable day.
I held your hand again-
Like when we were kids, and you were afraid of the thunder that sometimes rang at night during the thunderstorms.
And could do nothing as I watched you slip away.
You squeezed my hand once again,
As I let out the pain that I held back during the months of treatments.
The leaves were brown and ugly now,
Trodden into the earth and their beauty forgotten.
But you know, I won't ever forget you,
Not when every year,
When autumn comes, your memory comes alive to me too.
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I stepped delicately through the labyrinth of stones,
And kneeled in front of the one that scripted your name
It's been a year now, but I still can see
You and your smile; your voice, our times together
-I wanna talk to you so bad,
Will you hear me if I yell out, or do I just have to whisper?
The pain that I feel when I realize
Again and again that you aren't here anymore…
No one will ever feel it as sharp and cold as I do.-
Today's exactly 20 years from when we first met,
And I'm still that little girl,
But you're too far away from me now.
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